TODAY I have thoroughly decided that I am going to use my blog again. I have been feeling unmotivated as an artist, and have found myself incredibly lost these past couple of months.
There are a few things recently that have inspired me to start blogging again/perhaps jog my inspiration back up.
Here is a list.
NUMBER ONE: I have an intense passion for art and women’s studies. Both of these things are currently fading away from my daily time an energy. I spend more time at work, sleeping, drinking, eating, watching breaking bad..what the fuck ever else rather than focusing on my passions.
2. Social media, and the ignorance I come across every day just from scrolling down my news feed on Facebook.
3. Getting to guest speak about my success and passion for art in front of high school students a few weeks ago.
4. Miley Cyrus (as dumb as that sounds I think she is a relevant topic in rape culture and Woman interests)
5. The fact that last week 3 strangers/acquaintances came to me and told me that they have been sexually assaulted and or roofied. All in a public place just randomly out of nowhere as if it wasn’t a big deal or was the normal thing.
6. National coming out day.
So that’s a semi-short list and only scratches the surface. Hopefully I will have time to eventually blog about all of these-or use them as inspirations for future art works.
SO I digress.
I’m getting really sick of this trend. I cannot count on two hands how many of my friends/acquaintances have been assaulted, abused, or raped. Obviously, something is wrong here.
I think the whole idea of “rape culture” has actually surfaced a whole lot more in the past four years I have been attending community college. Before college, I didn’t have a single clue what rape culture was-Or that rape wasn’t necessarily a dark man in an alley with a knife. I had never read a feminist article, never heard a horrifying rape story, or even anything about rape culture on the internet. Lately-it is all over the internet. That to me is progress. However, there is still a whole lot of progress to be made.
Last week ( all these conclusions in my birthday week-how depressing) I stumbled upon this video about victim blaming. I think it actually changed my life.
This was one of the most inspirational videos I have ever seen-and here’s why:
I have read a lot of feminist (and not feminist) blogs, articles, news stories etc. speaking out against rape culture and standing up for people who have been raped. But how often do you read an article written from a someone who has been sexually assaulted themselves? How often does somebody film themselves thoroughly describing how they were raped in a video for the whole world to see? Not very often, and at least not in the same way that was expressed in the way Franchesca does on her youtube.
Like I said- I have read a lot of incredibly inspiring articles and books about female AND male experiences about being raped, but this one particularly struck me because I could hear and see her story-just her-white background.
Her story was almost identical to mine. Her video made me realize how important it is for us as human beings to stop victim blaming. I never once thought I would come out about being raped on the internet let alone to 80 percent of my friends.
So I’m done living in fear of what people will think of me. I’m done letting the past dictate my future. I want to take a part in ending the fear of all women-men-children who have survived sexual violence.
Because of victim blaming, millions of people out there are sitting in their bedrooms in isolation of what has happened to them- and now I am sitting in my bedroom speaking out.
I’m hoping that writing this blog will lift a burden off my chest. A burden that may be preventing myself as an artist, student, friend, daughter HUMAN etc. from moving forward.
SO now that this has been the longest blog ever- to whoever may read this- not gonna lie I am terrified to post. However, I could not watch her blog and NOT respond to it. So thanks to Franchesca-youtube star-whoever-wherever you are for changing my life.
I want to inspire others as I am inspired. If we all stay silent, we can not make progress on this.
Much love <3